two things I wanted to share with someone. so here goes.
first of all, I haven't taken any nausea medication today (first time in a month and a half!), and I feel GREAT!!!
second of all, and anyone who knows me should know how happy this is making me. there's a room that has a coffee pot close to my room. every time I walk by, I have to hold my breath (the smell makes me want to empty my stomach as quickly as possible).
well, I walked by today, and nothing! the smell didn't make me feel sick!!
maybe I'll be able to step foot inside a Starbucks again sooner than later. :)
3.27.2008
DDR
I had my first experience last night with Dance Dance Revolution (DDR).
I was a little bit nervous. I get that way when I'm about to get up in front of any number of people (last night it was about 6) and doing something I've never done, and there's the potential for being made the fool.
it all turned out well in the end - I loved it! I have a new favorite past-time. and it's a great workout! my heart rate was up whenever I was on the pad.
I have to give a little disclaimer. my first song was so easy, it was almost ridiculous. everyone, even people who were good at the game, were scoring a "D" on every song. I scored a "B" on my first shot - that was how easy my song was.
I got better through the evening, but that wasn't the point. the point was that we had fun, laughed a lot, and burned a couple hundred calories.
I was a little bit nervous. I get that way when I'm about to get up in front of any number of people (last night it was about 6) and doing something I've never done, and there's the potential for being made the fool.
it all turned out well in the end - I loved it! I have a new favorite past-time. and it's a great workout! my heart rate was up whenever I was on the pad.
I have to give a little disclaimer. my first song was so easy, it was almost ridiculous. everyone, even people who were good at the game, were scoring a "D" on every song. I scored a "B" on my first shot - that was how easy my song was.
I got better through the evening, but that wasn't the point. the point was that we had fun, laughed a lot, and burned a couple hundred calories.
3.26.2008
renew your mind
I decided on a way to start the process of renewing your mind.
memorizing Scripture!
I started on Monday with Psalm 61:1-4.
I used to memorize Scripture all the time, but for some reason, I stopped.
now I'm starting again.
then, when things are quiet, what pops into my head won't be negaive things about myself or anything else, but it will be the words that I have been storing in my mind and heart. at least that's what I'm hoping!
I'm going to try and type Psalm 61:1-4 from memory. you can check my work if you'd like! (NASB version)
Hear my cry, oh God
Give heed to my prayer
from the end of the earth I call out to You when my heart is faint
lead me to the Rock that is higher than I
for You have been a refuge for me
a tower of strength against the enemy
let me dwell in Your tent forever
let me take refuge in the shelter of Your wings.
Selah.
memorizing Scripture!
I started on Monday with Psalm 61:1-4.
I used to memorize Scripture all the time, but for some reason, I stopped.
now I'm starting again.
then, when things are quiet, what pops into my head won't be negaive things about myself or anything else, but it will be the words that I have been storing in my mind and heart. at least that's what I'm hoping!
I'm going to try and type Psalm 61:1-4 from memory. you can check my work if you'd like! (NASB version)
Hear my cry, oh God
Give heed to my prayer
from the end of the earth I call out to You when my heart is faint
lead me to the Rock that is higher than I
for You have been a refuge for me
a tower of strength against the enemy
let me dwell in Your tent forever
let me take refuge in the shelter of Your wings.
Selah.
3.25.2008
Hairspray
I think I have a lesson to learn from a cheesy musical. that's right, Hairspray. John Travolta dressed up as a woman, married to Christopher Walken. can't get much worse than that!
but on to my point..
I have a problem. my identity seems to be in the wrong thing a lot of the time.
it's in how I look.
I didn't realize this was still an issue for me until a couple of weeks ago.
you see, I used to be a lot heavier than I am now. 40 pounds and several sizes up all through junior high and high school. so much of who I was got wrapped up in how I looked. I never did like the way I looked.
then I lost weight. I was happy with where I was. lots lighter, and wearing a size 8 jeans. I couldn't have been happier. all the compliments helped - I loved all the positive attention!
then I got pregnant.
now, I know, you're supposed to gain weight when you're pregnant. but it's different when it's you.
my pants started getting tight almost a month ago. I gained about 8 pounds. not much, you may say. but it triggered something in me. my pants weren't fitting right, and I didn't like what I saw in the mirror.
and my identity got wrapped up in that.
or I should say, I realized that it always was wrapped up in my weight. it's just that, when I liked where I was, I didn't think about it so much.
so what do you do about this problem? I know my identity truly is in Christ. nothing else can or should define me. but I let this issue define me. and I don't know how to stop.
so back to Hairspray. it's all about this TV show that's full of in shape white kids who dance super well. by the end, you have Tracy, the short fat girl, as the star of the show. oh, and it ends up being integrated. all races dance together. it's a great story (if a little cheesy in getting there).
and not only that, the hot hunk guy leaves his pretty little blond girlfriend because he falls in love with Tracy's heart.
the whole movie, Tracy had it right. her identity was found in what was in her heart. not in how she looked.
I love that. it's a great lesson. now, I just need to figure out how to apply it!
but on to my point..
I have a problem. my identity seems to be in the wrong thing a lot of the time.
it's in how I look.
I didn't realize this was still an issue for me until a couple of weeks ago.
you see, I used to be a lot heavier than I am now. 40 pounds and several sizes up all through junior high and high school. so much of who I was got wrapped up in how I looked. I never did like the way I looked.
then I lost weight. I was happy with where I was. lots lighter, and wearing a size 8 jeans. I couldn't have been happier. all the compliments helped - I loved all the positive attention!
then I got pregnant.
now, I know, you're supposed to gain weight when you're pregnant. but it's different when it's you.
my pants started getting tight almost a month ago. I gained about 8 pounds. not much, you may say. but it triggered something in me. my pants weren't fitting right, and I didn't like what I saw in the mirror.
and my identity got wrapped up in that.
or I should say, I realized that it always was wrapped up in my weight. it's just that, when I liked where I was, I didn't think about it so much.
so what do you do about this problem? I know my identity truly is in Christ. nothing else can or should define me. but I let this issue define me. and I don't know how to stop.
so back to Hairspray. it's all about this TV show that's full of in shape white kids who dance super well. by the end, you have Tracy, the short fat girl, as the star of the show. oh, and it ends up being integrated. all races dance together. it's a great story (if a little cheesy in getting there).
and not only that, the hot hunk guy leaves his pretty little blond girlfriend because he falls in love with Tracy's heart.
the whole movie, Tracy had it right. her identity was found in what was in her heart. not in how she looked.
I love that. it's a great lesson. now, I just need to figure out how to apply it!
3.24.2008
for future reference
note to self:
never watch the last 10 minutes of "A Baby Story" on TLC while on break at work.
you'll cry as hard as that newly born baby, and you will still have to go back to face a room full of 7th graders.
never watch the last 10 minutes of "A Baby Story" on TLC while on break at work.
you'll cry as hard as that newly born baby, and you will still have to go back to face a room full of 7th graders.
3.22.2008
when two or more
it's funny to me how we avoid the things that do us the most good.
mending relationships.
being truly open with one another.
looking past a person's actions to who we know they really are.
the thing I avoid the most that truly does the most good?
praying together.
if someone comes to me with a burden, something heavy on their heart, I always have the thought, "we should pray together now!". almost inevitably, however, I give in the my fears and just say "I'll be praying for you." it's an appreciated response, but how sincere is it? really?
how much better would it be to say, "can I pray with / for you, right now?"
I did that today. it was with a safe person, which makes it easier (thanks, sis).
we were talking, and we were both going through (kind of) similar things.
I again had the though that we should pray together right then and there. I ignored it for a good ten minutes. but thankfully, the Holy Spirit won out this time! I got the words out, "can I pray for you right now?". and I did. and she prayed for me. and the Lord was there.
if two or more gather together and ask for anything in His name, He will do it.
what a wonderful gift. we should use it more often. we should pray together.
I'm going to try and make a point of it from now on. I'm always beyond happy with the results!! it's just making myself say the words that's the hard part...
mending relationships.
being truly open with one another.
looking past a person's actions to who we know they really are.
the thing I avoid the most that truly does the most good?
praying together.
if someone comes to me with a burden, something heavy on their heart, I always have the thought, "we should pray together now!". almost inevitably, however, I give in the my fears and just say "I'll be praying for you." it's an appreciated response, but how sincere is it? really?
how much better would it be to say, "can I pray with / for you, right now?"
I did that today. it was with a safe person, which makes it easier (thanks, sis).
we were talking, and we were both going through (kind of) similar things.
I again had the though that we should pray together right then and there. I ignored it for a good ten minutes. but thankfully, the Holy Spirit won out this time! I got the words out, "can I pray for you right now?". and I did. and she prayed for me. and the Lord was there.
if two or more gather together and ask for anything in His name, He will do it.
what a wonderful gift. we should use it more often. we should pray together.
I'm going to try and make a point of it from now on. I'm always beyond happy with the results!! it's just making myself say the words that's the hard part...
3.20.2008
A Daughter of Zion
"Love is the only mirror we must use to judge ourselves and others. And I will tell you this from my deepest heart: your life and happiness are worth the world to me -- worth more than my own life. If I, who am only a man, can love you so very much, when you look into the mirror of God's love, Rachel, you will see hope and joy and mercy. You will see how very much he cares for you and values you as His own dear daughter."
-by Bodie Thoene
-by Bodie Thoene
